Dont know what to do
I know its been a long time since I wrote last.
I am back in Argentina again, after one year living in Sweden as an exchange student. I have now started university, I am also doing my career in flute like always and I started piano, choir, singing and italian phonetic lessons.
My flute teacher is a new one, I am not sure if i like it. I went to class and could not play well.
I really like piano and singing lessons. And I think I like university, but I am afraid I will not pass the exams and I dont like studying as much as I have to.
I want to stay home, wake up late, or not so early (6am), play music when I want, buy a piano, and I am not sure if I want to study. I wanna meet my friends and go partying, meet my exchange students friends, but I know I am getting older and the students who come here are always gonna be less than 18 years old.
I think all this things came from my last flute lesson when i played like I am used to and it was not good enought. But I want to study as much as I want, and as I was used to before.
I would like to talk more with my friends in Sweden but I dont have any topics to talk about and if I talk to them I feel like I am annoying. And I am losing my swedish because I dont use it anymore. I would like to read and write in swedish for training, but I dont have any time. And I would love to have an exchange student living in my house but its too expensive and we cant.
My family is really good and I am glad I am with them again. I would love to live abroad once more, but I dont want to because of them.
I have now new friends. I dont know if I can call them friends yet. Just met them 2 months ago when I started university. They are nice and I like drinking mate with them and talk, however I would like to be closer to them.
I am going to One Direction consert in exactly one month!!! Cannot wait to do that.
I really need to start being famous right now and start from the beggining again.
I feel like I am being egoist saying all this stuff, I dont think my life is not good, I am just not loving it at the moment. I know I see all this from a negative perspective, but everything has a positive side. I needed to express myself and take all this out of my mind.